26.12.10

Returning

Wow, I can't believe I'm back here. I keep thinking I'll blog and keep this up, however I have yet to do so. But here I am, trying once again to follow through with the things I start. I have decided to make a fresh start of it, clearing out all the old and beginning again liken I wish I could do with so many things in my life.
When I first thought I'd start a blog many things worried me. Who would be interested in what I had to say? What if it wasn't polished and proper enough? (I'm no English major) What if (and this one did happen) I can't keep up the motivation to keep writing?
Now, I don't care. I have not developed this love of writing or anything, its just that some things are easier to share with a web of complete strangers than with the people I know. It does not matter if they like what I say or what I choose to say it about. I am not going to worry about being judged or looked down upon, because everyone is a screw up in some way or another.
Ever since I was young I worried about friends. I would try to buy them with gifts and birthday invitations. Although I am definitely not in elementary school and however much I hate to admit it I still worry about how I am perceived way too often.
So here I am, back again. I'll just have to wait and see how it goes.
~ J